I Can't Be Bothered

Know the thing i disliked the most? Ingrates. People who appreciate the things and help that others have given to them. And this is the term that i will use to descibe some of the people in MB0505.

Straightforward? Crude? Well, Watever, I can't be bothered anymore. What's the point when people don't appreciate whatever it is that you have done for them, but to take you for granted. Why do i say that? Here's why.

I was on MSN tat day, and LY came to tok to me asking me whether the agents in my office require anybody to distribute flyers for them, and to keep a lookout for him. So i said ok. It so happens coincidentally that an agent is my office requires someone to help distribute flyers. So i called LY and the two of them tok on the phone. But, it didn't work out. Apparently LY's price was too high, double the market price. Naturally my agent didn't want. Fine. So then i asked him, will he be coming to my 21st birthday party. Guess what was his reply? I got money then i go haha. What, is this the way to treat a person who went through all the trouble to help you? Has he ever considered my feelings? To think that i lend him my lecture notes back in poly when he asked to borrow it. Makes me feel that he is onli using me because i pay attention during lectures and that my lecture notes are always full of notes. Well, this will be the final time. Never ever again am i gonna help him anymore. The next time he comes asking me again, i will tell him directly: Sorry, im not free. He can jolly well go figure things out himself and find his own help. I am not laying a finger to help him anymore.

Then, there's my 21st birthday party. Send out invitations to my friends, including those from MB0505. Some of them dun even have the coutesy to reply, especially the guys. Ok, i get it that they are busy with NS, but are they so damn busy that they can't even check their schedule and reply me? Is it so damn difficult to repl a yes or no? You know what, i feel that i have been treated like shit, worse then shit. Or mayb they dun even regard my existence at all. Take cara's and ziling's birthday for example. The guys can reply cara as to whether they were going ar not, some of them even turn up. (jeffery, LY and YC ) Same goes for ziling's birthday, the guys can turn up (jeffery, kelvin, YW). Then wat about me? None of them even bothered to reply (with the exception of YW). I don't wanna comment too much on kelvin. When i send out the first invitation, he told me he hoped that he would be able to attend my party and that he would get back to me regarding his attendance. Then, when the second invitation was sent out asking them to RSVP by 30 aug, still no reply came from him. So i message him tat day asking him to confirm his attendance as i was to order my food already. His reply? I have a feeling that i would not be able to make it as i would be going overseas. Its pre-planned. Ok, fine, at least its a reply. But whether its true or not i do not know, and neither do i wanna know. All i know is tat, i have been treated like shit. Downright shit.

To think that i always turn up for most of the class events and gatherings and they can't even spare a few hours of their precious saturday evening to attend my party, i mean, not that i wan them to attend my party or wat, i can't be bothered, but the thought of it just infuriaties me. If this is the way they treat me, fine, the next time, if there's any class events or gatherings and im being called, im not gonna attend. I don't see the point. Im not the nice gal anymore, whom people can take advantage of and take for granted. From now on, im onli gonna bother about my own stuff. I can't be bothered anymore. Not happy? Too bad, tats the way it is.

Terrible Headache :(

Sick, down with the flu :(

Ok, this two incidents have been bothering me for quite sum time, so i figured im gonna blog it all out and get over with it.

First, its the DT job thingy. AK emailed everyone asking who was interested in the DT job and asked those who are interested to send in their resume. So, ok, i send in mine. After exams, the school started selecting and calling those selected candidates. Sad to say, i wasn't selected. I mean, it's alrite for me coz it's the lecturers the ones who does the selection, so they have the rite to choose who they wan to hire. This i have no comments. One of my close friend actually blog abt it in her blog abt she not being selected and stuff like that. AK actually commented on her blog explaining tat she didn't get the job becoz her gpa is not gd enuf (his meaning of gd is 3.2, according to wat he wrote in my friend's blog.)

Then there's this friend of mine from another class who after her fyp was over, messaged me and asked me who to submit her resume to for the DT job. So i told her AK. Then a few days later i got a message from her saying that the school called her for interview. At that point of time, i felt abit hurt and upfair. Ok, this person has a gpa of 2.5 and she for a call, that other friend oso had the same gpa as her, yet she didn't a single call, the same goes for me who has a gpa of 3.2. I mean, im not jealous that she got selected or anything, i jus felt abit unfair tats all. It was AK the one who said that the minimum gpa was 3.2, yet y izzit this person who only has a gpa of 2.5 got the call, but not my friend who has the same gpa as her or me? But then cum to tink of it, i dun nid nyp to call me, i can find a job of my own based on my own ability and capability, who knows, mayb i might get a job better then the one in nyp.

Then there's this second incident. This one involves my classmate, who is super kiasu. Y do i say that? Met him one afternoon in school to pass him the rest of my classmates' testimonials as we both wanted to get out transscript chopped and initialed. When he saw my results, he was like wa so many As, whereas for him, he had alot of B+s. He wasn't really happy coz he had alot of B+. His gpa: 3.257. My gpa: 3.253. So i said: ur gpa is higher then me. Guess wat was his reply? Aiya, come on la, its only 0.004? Im like ok, fine. 0.004?! Do u know that even a mere 0.004 makes alot of difference?! Not even 0.004, 0.001 oso makes a difference. So wat if i have a lot of As, i earned the As with my own sweat, blood and hard work. U want tat kind of results, u jolly well go work hard for it. Then he was telling me how thick his supporting documents was; if his grades are not good enuf to earn him a place in uni, he hopes his supporting documents will help him to earn a place, blah blah blah. I was like rolling my eyes. I didn not even send all these supporting documents, all i send was jus my transcript and Sec school CCA records tats all. Ok, to say sth very crude. If the uni does not accept u, no amount of supporting documents nor appeal letter is gonna help u anyway. Wat is meant to be yours will be yours. Wat is not meant to be yours, no matter how much u try to fight for it, it will still not be yours. Get it?

So the conclusion for these two inceidents: I believe in myself.

I've Learned... If you will take the time to read these, I promise you'll come away with an enlightened perspective.

The subjects covered affect us all on a daily basis! They're written by Andy Rooney, a man who has the gift of saying so much with so few words.

I've learned.... That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.

I've learned.... That when you're in love, it shows.

I've learned.... That just one person saying to me, "You've made my day!" ...makes my day.

I've learned.... That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.

I've learned.... That being kind is more important than being right.

I've learned.... That you should never say no to a gift from a child.

I've learned.... That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.

I've learned.... That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

I've learned.... That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I've learned.... That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.

I've learned.... That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer itgets to the end, the faster it goes.

I've learned.... That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

I've learned.... That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned... That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I've learned.... That the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?

I've learned.... That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I've learned.... That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I've learned.... That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I've learned.... That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I've learned.... That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.

I've learned.... That there's nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling their breath on your cheeks.

I've learned.... That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I've learned.... That life is tough, but I'm tougher.

I've learned.... That opportunities are never lost; someone will takethe ones you miss.

I've learned.... That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

've learned.... That I wish I could have told my Dad that I love him one more time before he passed away.

I've learned.... That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I've learned.... That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve yourlooks.

I've learned.... That I can't choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.

I've learned.... That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life.

I've learned.... That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.

I've learned ... That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life threatening situation.

I've learned.... That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

Met up with carine and linda darlings yesterday. Its great to see them, both doing fine :) Went to clarke quay, tried Waraku Japanese restaurant. I ordered Yasai curry with soba noodles, regular. Haha...didn't expect the serving to be so big! Couldn't finish at all. So damn full. Carine and linda managed to finish tho. Its delicious :)

After lunch, we relaxed in the restaurant and chit chatted, about classmates, future, life, etc. So then linda said she is meeting her friend to pass him a cake as it was his birthday. We then walked out of the central mall to Ricciotti-An italian deli and pastry restaurant to buy small cake for linda's friend, weide. Linda then said she wanted to treat us, so we bought a cake and shared it. The taste was unique. At ard 5.15pm, linda's friend arrived, we walked back to the mrt station to meet her friend. Took the train to douby ghaut, met carine's mum and weide's friend there. Carine and her mum then went off to orchard-lucky plaza while linda, weide, is friend and i went to the arcarde. They played house of the dead and silent hill, both about killing zombies, i jus stood there and watch, fun tho. After that, walked to the mrt and took the train home.

It was a fun day overall. I was so full that i only ate a little during dinner. It was nice meeting up with them.

All the best in ur new job linda :)

Its been such a long time since i last blog. Haha..anyway im back. Chinese new year is over, and so is exams. Haha...finally, i can really rest. Been really tired. Been relaxing at home, accompanying my mum out and of course, going out with my friends! Life's been really normal.

Anyway, results are out. Here's how i flare.

Communications Skills: B+
Proteomics: B
Drug Development: A
Structural and Functional Genomics: A
Principles Of Clicical Trials: A
Essentials of Business Management: A
Molecular Biology of Infectious Diseases: B+
Bioinnovation: A
Bioenterprise: A

GPA: 3.253

Guess my hard work really paid off huh, all the late nite sleeps, becoming a nite owl, popping pimples, painful fingers from all the writing and putting myself at risk from developing early alzhemiers from all the memorising and killing of brain cells. YUP!!! :):):)

So now everyone's moving on to the next phase of out lives. Watever it is, i wish all of them the best! i guess its the last time im seeing some of them. So all the best guys!