Hmm...had a tok with my mum abt ziling. I ask her: am i wrong to complain abt her to the rest of my classmates (not tat i complain to everyone, but to some of them). Then my mum said: i shouldn't have done tat, coz its between me and her, i shouldn't like " announce it to the whole world". Then i told her: the whole class knows her character, and practically the whole class dun like her. She told me: Even if tat is so, i shouldn't have complain abt her to them, i shouldn't have " like stab her in the back. poison her in the back". And i realise tat wat my mum say is true. I shouldn't have done tat, even though the class knows her character, i shouldn;t have done tat too. Its like " poisoning" her. My mum also said that its no use of me complaining and complaining, coz she will never change, so why sinned againest GOD. And i realise tat her words made A WHOLE LOT OF SENSE.

Jus now, on the way from Toa Payoh, while in the bus, i've been thinking. Im actually quite a bad person. Among the three of us(carine, ayesha and me), i think i treated her the worse. Hmm...i shall complain less next time. Even if i do, i won complain to the rest of the class.

Bad and guilty, me.

Somebody is jus so KIASU!!!!! I jus can't stand it. She goes for lecture, takes down notes vigorously. Then later, still can borrow other ppl;s notes to copy. I mean, come on la, she went for lecture, took down her own notes, then still wan to borrow other ppl's notes?! Its not as if she didnt go for the lecture. Ok, if u didnt go for lecture, or u cant catch wat the lecturer is saying, that i can understand. But, every time?!?!?! I went for lecture too. but am i like her, go and borrow other ppl'e notes? To put it in a crude way, i dun copy notes from other ppl, but yet my common test results still turned out ok. To put it in an even more crude way, so wat if u have all the notes, but if u dunoe how to apply it, u dun have the brains, its oso useless. So wats the point???

Everytime during practical, she will always go and ask the teacher questions. One to one, to be precise. Then, later still can come and tell me dunoe how to do. In the end when we get back our report, she gets an A/A+ and a good at tat. Then, wat abt the rest of us? We slog like hell for the report and yet we get like wat? B, B+, sometimes C. Her report is already so good, and yet she still wan to ask for other ppl's report.

Ever seen someone so kiasu in ur life?

Watever la.

Feeling quite emotional unstable this week. Broke down once on tuesday. HMM..tat day after marketing lecture, ayesha and i were sitting at the stone tablets outside waiting for carine. Then, i saw weijie walked out of the lecture theatre. I then called him stupid boy. Ayesha then told me that he dunoe that im cursing him.

Then in the bus, the both of us then talked about weijie. At that point, i jus suddenly felt a feeling of sadness. At certain points, i jus felt like crying, but i held back my tears as i did not wan to embarrass myself in front of so many people in the bus. Then, later at night, while bathing, i broke down and cried.

Then on friday, after hbd lecture, carine, ayesha and i went to plaza sing. Suddenly, i jus felt a sense of loneliness welling within.

Yesterday, while in church, i felt like crying again. But luckily, the feeling disappeared quickly.

I guess the reason that i broke down was partly becoz of weijie. Silly anne falling for a stupid boy. I dun even know why did i fall for him in the lst place. i rather it be someone from another class, then someone from the same class, and my lab partner at that. Right now, all i wanna do is to forget him. He is not worth me thinking so much and wasting my tears. After all, it jus a crush, and i believe that i deserve someone better, not someone like him, but someone WAY better. My Mr Right is someone out there waiting for me, so its time for me move on and find that person. Right now, im happy to say that im 70% over with him. Sooner or later, it will be a 100%, and im gonna make that happen. I muz, i can and i will. Anyway, wats the point? He won even fall for a girl like me. He jus treats me as a sister. So why harbour such thoughts? Might as well forget him and go and find someone better, someone who will really love me, care for me and take care of me.

So, time to move on.

Stupid boy

watever

muhaha :):P:D

Friday 30 June

Went to school today for a 1 hour IM test. After that, met dhiviya and saras at the lift near south canteen. Walked to the mrt station together and took the train to orchard. Along the way, i sms sujith telling him that we were on our way to orchard. In the train, he sms back saying that he could not make it as he had essay consulatation. I then sms him back telling him to call us when he had finished. We then reach orchard.

Upon reaching orchard, dhiviya then suggested going to far east plaza. We then walked there. We then ate lunch at long john silvers. We were enjoying lunch when suddenly carine spotted a cockroach. Ayesha immediately put her legs up on the chairs. She brought her legs so fast that her shoe straps broke. Saras climbed from one chair to another. A group of girls screamed abd ran out of the restaurant. Dhiviya suddenly screamed and said that my foot brushed against hers. As the cockroach crawled nearer and nearer to out table, everybody got up and started running to the next aisle, screaming. One of the guys then went to call the manager. The manager then got out, grab the cockroach with a piece of tissue and threw it away. We then went back to eat our lunch, heaving a sign of relief. Wat a super dooper hyper major funny incident :) :P:D

After lunch, we shopped for a while. Ayesha and dhiviya then suggested going to bugis as they couldn't find any shoes. We then took the train to bugis. Dhiviya then took us round bugis street. Dhiviya bought a skirt at one of the shops. At the second level, ayesha and dhiviya each bought a pair of shoes. Meanwhile, carine and i went to pick sujith up. We walked from one end of bugis street to another before we finally found sujith. After meeting up with the rest of the girls, we went to shop at parco bugis junction. By that time, it was already 5.15. We then shopped around for a while. Ayesha left at 5.30 as she had her motorbike practical. Dhiviya, saras and sujith left at 5.55. Carine and i went to newbie to shop before going home.

Wat a fun and memorable day. Haha...A real, true sisterz outing :)

Ok, gotta go liao. Blog another time. BYE :):P:D